咳。。

dear.. 你在哪里？睡了吗？
我写着这个 blog 是在麻麻档。。我的朋友刚走了。。
本来昨晚听到你的声音后，睡到很舒服的。。
本来想今天开开心心的开始新的一天的。。
但是
早上又发生了一些东西，
弄到我很不开心。。一阵天在公司死顶假装没有事。。
刚才又逼自己和朋友懂球。。
哪。。现在一自己一个人坐在这里我又突然觉得寂寞。。
很想找你聊天。。
像昨晚一样那么开心。。
那么不用想将多。。
不用翻那么多。。
咳。。还是不可能的啦。。
你已经睡觉了吧。。
你明天还要早起床的列。。
你现在的工作比之前的还要早。。
写到这里啦。。
晚安。。

我爱你。。

22/11/2009 haihz.. today again..

22 again.. 11 again.. makes me think a lot.. lastnight, i went for a gathering with my old skoolmates.. and it was nice to see them back, especially Chong.. which the last time i saw him was last 2 years.. everyone doesnt change much.. except Kb n tung, they become smoker lik me ady.. hahaha..

back to work, we all enjoy the great BORING day of Sunday.. and we had a feast of KFC n McD in the office at afternoon.. and somehow, today is oso a great loss of everyone here in China City.. hmm..five of us.. lost over RM2000 today.. fuck that place la..

at around 8pm when im back from dinner with frenz, she find me to chat at MSN.. wow..a really enjoyable conversation.. and she did encouraged me to save more money as i told her that i spent a lot lately.. she's really nice..




thanks..

暗恋

Still lonely still lonely
昨晚又再见到你 你还是那么美丽
我紧张到话都不会说 就傻傻看着你
渴望永远这距离 就是和你在一起
醒来发现这一切都只是我的梦境
告诉自己要冷静 却又无法不想你
我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己
是你对我有戒心 还是我没有自信
可是谁也不能阻止我 我要暗恋你

So lonely
So here I am standing all alone
在某个街头 有个我在这里只为你等候
Here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有 希望你能了解你能够接受
今晚渴望再见你 虽然只是在梦想
短暂的甜蜜也胜过了一辈子没有你
就算没快乐结局 就算从此死了心
我要付出我所有诚意 只要能感动你

我愿意


So lonely
So here I am standing all alone
开放我所有 我要为你怎么做你才接受我
我喜欢你 我要你 我爱你
So here I am standing all alone
So here I am waiting just for you

I'm lonely
故事就说到这里 就算你们再好奇
我想说的都已说完了 其余是秘密
在那某一个街头 会流传某个旋律
那是我在轻轻唱着歌 我多爱你 vicky

so happy to see u back..

after 215 days passed, seven months.. i get the golden chance to see u back once again.. 17th November 2009 8.02pm, a memorable moment which i was playing my laptop at my counter here, and suddenly, she popped out in front of me and say hi.. oh my god, i was damn shocked and my heart was beating lik hell.. she didnt change much, still the same adorable face.. haha.. but really, i felt happy to see her back.. thanks to my fren who brought her to visit me ( i jux treat this person a dinner juxnow) haha..wat a lame.. i hope to see her again someday, wait that im free 1st then i will date her to some more quiet place to hav a long chat.. dear, i miss u so much..

p/s : dun eat Prawn Mee at Oldtown Low Yat Plaza, they served it without prawns.. i scolded them juxnow..then only they put 2 more prawns for me.. shitty guy..

11th November 2009 = one year passed..

today im very moody, duno y.. cuz i reminded back myself last year's today was the day i broke up with her.. 11/11.. in my life, most of the time, the number 11 and 22 keep on come up in my sight.. and a lot of happenings are related with this number oso.. for example, sumtimes i accidentally sat on a table number 22 in some restaurant.. when i fork the bill, then oni i know.. or, the number that my company gave to me oso end up with the number 22..019-2777422.. and a lot more.. hmm.. 11 oso..u see, 11th November..11 + 11 = ?... 22 right? hmm...

today is wednesday, supposingly my offday is on thursday.. but i took a sudden offday from my manager despite my head was pain at the time i woke up.. really pain.. then i stay at home for the whole day and clean up my messy room.. watched '官心计', and ordered McD delivery for my lunch.. i tried not to think so much about this date.. at night, roughly 11pm my fren called me for snooker game at PGRM.. and in the progress, a malay fren of mine challenged me for a game of RM 50 at the VIP table.. ok.. i won 4 frames, lost one frame.. and got myself RM 150 jux as simple as that.. aahhahaha.. i shud hav win at the 2nd frame, which i parked a blue colour ball at the hole, when i tried to pot it in..but it came out and he potted it .. but RM 150 oso ok la..


dear, i hope that you are happy for who u r now and once again, im sorry for being so mean last time.. i really regret..our memories become a torture in my mind now, as i always think of how bad i treat u last time.. do u know that i still have those pictures and videos that we took lasttime, especially the video clip which we took at outside Pavillion after we watched the movie Cloverfield with Lemon and Chongwei? it was funny and i really can smile back everytime i watch back that video..

i love you..

glad to see you back bro..

I saw Nelson Moh, one of my best brother on the way back home.. he was with his girlfriend, MJ.. and we talked for a while.. hmm, hope to find him at Melaka soon cuz he promise to take me for a ride over there.. nice place..

i'm touched to see that..

i just opened my Facebook this afternoon, and there's a new message in my inbox.. hmm, i'm so touched to see that message sent from my mui.. here's what she wrote..

"weyy gor, long time didn't chat with you jor. maybe not reaaaally long but still kinda long. hahahaha -___-

what's your phone number now ah? wanna contact you also hard. you know la, you change phone number macam change clothes...

my heart felt pain when see you said you tend to drink a lot these days. don't larrr... your body your health is very precious tau..
maybe you'll think: aiyo not your business la
but seriously, it worries your friends a lot k?

when is your off day jor ahh? see can meet up or not..

hasn't really get updates about you recently...

miss you, seriously.
Daddy misses you a lot too. haha.

take good care of yourself ah gor :)

♥
bee mui "


haha..really thank you for your kind concern, mui..
really appreciate it..
i'm quite fine here..
can't die yet har...
hahahaha..hope to see you sumday la..

4th November 2009 night

this is one of my memorable moment in my life ever..it's been a long time since then.. i went to heaven, enjoyed myself with imagination.. and then suffered as im in hell.. i hope that i won't touch those things again, ever.. i want to be a healthy person and a normal one.. the effect stopped at around 3am midnight, and my head was like pierced and frozen.. hmm..and i vormitted a lot also.. luckily today is my offday..

i will survive

yes i will and i must survive from this kind of life-circle.. i will prove to you that i'm right..

i will survive

yes i will and i must survive from this kind of life-circle.. i will prove to you that i'm right..

22/09/2009

tuesday. different from the usual one, today is a quiet day..i was ordered to look after the fair counter at sg.wang today.. and at there, a lot of passerby but only a one or two who wants to buy.. boring day.. tonight i'll be going back home and not to spend much money anymore..got the latest 古灵精探 B from my sis.. and i must watch it tonight.. save money ar..

oh yah, today is 22nd.. Happy 22nd to you, dear..
hope that u r happy today..



jinjang-jimmy

farewell to my friend, Low Han Bin..

my best friend in VI, Low Han Bin.. glad to know that he will be furthering his studies in overseas.. we had a farewell activity lastnite for him.. dinner at Kaki Corner, and then we went to Aladdin for gaming.. around 1am, Wilson need to back home, so we decided to yumcha at mamak near his house at Midah.. we hang there until 3am sumthing.. and that was the last eye i see him.. goodluck to u, Han Bin and all the best ya.. we'll be missing you here in Malaysia..






once again, Toonz!
hahahahha..




a memorable sign from him, 'bangga'

challenge day

got challenged by a gang from Kuchai Lama, snooker match tonight..
RM100 / RM300 / RM500 per frame..
i will be bringing my sifu, Rocky..

*wish us goodluck..hope that we can win..

Goodbye, Shobaanthiran Pillai (Shoby)

I just got news from my friend that my schoolmate, Shobaanthiran Pillai dead on yesterday becoz of car accident.. it was a long time i didnt see him, and hope to hang out with him some day.. i jux found his Facebook acc last week and added him.. he approved my request on last 2 days, and it's unbelievable that he is dead right now.. I felt sad, as he's the 1st friend that i know in form 1, and he always tell me that too.. we met at school hall during the 1st week orientation in Victoria Institution.. and coincidentally he is my classmate too in Form 1M.. he's a good guy indeed.. and an active one too.. May God bless you, Shoby..you will always be remembered.. R.I.P


Shoby's Videoclip : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83OMsXjhFrc




jinjang-jimmy

11/09/2009

''I can't believe what i saw.. Hope that i'm just dreaming right now, but it seems to be in my reality world for a long time and i didn't know.. I will stand strong, yet i will still wait for you.. Just hope that you are happy with your new life now''


I love you..

世界末日 11/09/2009

想笑　来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头　承认自己会怕黑
我只求　能借一点的时间来陪
你却连同情都不给
想哭　来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界　好像只有我疲惫
无所谓　反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
天灰灰　会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑　梦违背
难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违
累不累　睡不睡
单影无人相依偎
夜越黑　梦违背
有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美



我今天的心情就好像前几年美国大楼给人炸死了很多人的一莫一样 9 11。。因为今天我已看到一些我自己从来都没发觉到的事。。很多人常问我，她最近怎样啊，有了男朋友没有啊？我根本不知道该答什么好，我就说没有啦。。直到今天我终于看到了。。也哭了一下子。。
到底我是不是在发梦呢？事实就是事实。。
我是否很傻？有人骂过我叫我跳出这个牛角尖。。
我还是做不到。。很没用。。
如果给她看到我现在这个样子她一定笑。。
笑我没用，笑我幼稚。。

30/08/2009

31/08/2009 National Day countdown

10pm - finish working
10.30pm - eat steam fish with frenz at Pudu (1st dinner)
11.30pm - went to Taman Taynton to help me friend move house to Balakong. We altogether 5 cars with 11 peoples.
1.00am - we reach Balakong and start to move things up.
1.45am - mission accomplished
2.30am - went to Pandan Mewah's McDonald to relax relax (2nd dinner)
4.30am - dared by my friend Alex to go to Chow Kit to eat Bak Kut Teh.
4.45am - reach Chow Kit's Mungo Jerry Bak Kut Teh..not bad (3rd dinner)
5.30am - back home



jinjang-jimmy

26/08/2009

我发觉我这几天的脾气好像特别的怀酱。。看到什么都不顺眼。。和客人吵架又想到要打起来。。我只是知道我最近生病了。。明天开始我就会休息三天在家。。又伤风又咳又发烧。。真的顶不到了。。再坚持到酱不休息真的怕等下会搞出人命啊。。

明晚朋友生日，去 pavillion 庆祝，不知道要不要去好。。

如果有你在我身边，你说几好呢？

13/08/2009

random offday again.. got drunk on last night at Starzwalk Bar with a few Malay and Chinese frenz.. we played a stupid version of Baccarat (Banker and Player) and our bettings were beers, satays or ice cube.. damn funny, we even make a fool on the 2 female singers on the stage..

i slept until 11.45am and tat's only when my sister rang me up.. i 4got to put on my alarm as usual and i forgot tat i dated my 2 lovely sisters for lunch today.. haha, quickly rushed to bathroom and prepare myself up.. then i went to Shamelin Perkasa to look for them.. seldom we get chance like this, 3 of us sitting down together and eat.. 4got to take photos ya.. after meal, i went to my auntie's car workshop which is at nearby and i lepak at there for around 2 hrs la..

i heard that SHE was sick since last few days, and i actually wanted to buy her a basket of fruits to her house.. she said no need, and that changes everything.. i hope that she can take care of herself..

at nite, as promised on last week, we went to eat crab at Pandan Indah (Carmen's suggestion) for dinner.. kah yan wasn't feeling good today.. bt nvm, we still continue to eat.. nextweek we are planning to eat Thailand food pulak.. scary..i dun eat spicy food that much.. hahaha..nvm, once in a while la..

after that, i went to snooker centre as usual and played until 4am.. 15 frames.. gila..damn exhausted..
( Jimmy 2-6 Kenny )
( Jimmy 4-1 Edmund )
( Jimmy, Kenny 1-2 Edmund, Uncle Tung )

i was impressed on the 2 frames i had with Kenny (a very pro snooker player).. i won him 59 points with 3 more red balls remaining and he yelled off-on (means reset game) and the bill was RM1.80.. fulamak.. normal ppl play for Rm4 above every frame, but we played really damn fast.. that lady boss was suprised and shocked, she thought that the cashier machine was having faulty or wat.. hahaha.. and another round after that, RM1.60 !! Kenny won that round..he played a good game then.. damn fast.. when everything ended, we went to mamak for a breakfast and then back home..




jinjang-jimmy

可不可以爱我 ?

可不可以爱我-卢学叡


为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定
努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我
快乐 还是 寂寞 ?



dear, i hope you can see this and feel what am i feeling right now..
I LOVE YOU..

enjoyed myself this whole week..

although i dun talk with my parents anymore since tat nite (almost 2 weeks ady), but i still have my frenz with me and a lot of activities.. especially with the MKS team which recently i closed-up with.. we went to Hulu Langat Look-Out Point, OS, Pandan Indah durian stalls, Len Seng K-Box here and there..





for dining, we went to Tmn Taynton (Restoran Sin-Mei) and we ordered dishes with rice, 6 dishes and a bowl of soup.. fried noodles at Tmn Cheras Muda there around midnight time.. and an unforgetable moment at Bukit Saga where we had a lot of laughters over there..




on Wednesday, i had my sudden off day due to heavy rain over my place there.. guess what i did at home for the 1st time? i washed my own shirts and pants and dry them up..that was the 1st time i use my house's washing machine.. and that's only after i called my sis and ask for how to use that thing...and at night, i went out with Carmen and Kahyan to Taman Yulek steamboat restaurant.. like usual, we were happy when we talk bout our past-time.. we are planning to eat crabs on the next Friday.. hahaha...








last 2 days my snooker sifu/instructor brought me to Kepong and visited their new snooker center.. wow, it was big and amazing.. 2K Snooker Center, that's its name.. the tables and the environment is really different from what we saw before.. one world to describe.. NICE.. it's been a long time that i didn't see my sifu play snooker.. he and his snooker cue and his car Cooper is really astonishing.. Jealous..



yesterday, i went to play snooker with my frenz back here in Cheras, and yumcha with Kenny and Edmund until 4.30am.. quite sleepy now..




and today, i mean justnow.. my relatives came to find me at Low Yat after they went for my cousin brother's convo ceremony.. i brought them to buy camera and we headed to U-Village for brunch.. i had a Superior Shrimp Golden fried rice, and i can say that i'm really regreted for order that.. it was sucks and expensive.. and damn oily also.. RM18.90 for one plate of fried rice.. stupid lah..







Jinjang-Jimmy

25th July 2009

today is a damn damn busy day and quite tiring one also.. i back home on morning 8.30am after i had my breakfast with my fren at kari kepala ikan cheras there.. i tried not to sleep and then go to work straight away.. i tried to sit-sleeping but end up that i fell down and knocked my head.. haha..

i woke up at 12.10pm and quickly rush to bathroom and prepare everything.. i arrived at office at 12.48pm.. RM18 gone jus lik that.. haihz.. then i start my work.. everything goes well until 2pm and customer by customer start to appear.. i had to help my staffs to key-in those Celcom registration and on the other hand, i need to sell product also.. lolz..



i finish my work at 9.55pm and i wait my fren to fetch me to my ex's house at Tanming cux they are having a BBQ party there.. reached there at 11.30pm and they have finish everything and left cake and watermelon only.. haha..

we went to BRJ Alam Damai to yumcha after that.. lolz.. two days of BRJ with different spot.. i saw Kin Fon at there.. one old fren.. and then i called Ah Tung (bday boy) to yumcha together la.. we went home at around 2am, and duno wat stupid thing happened.. making there's 2 big road block at Taman Connaught and Taman Midah.. rempit punya pasal la kut..




jinjang-jimmy

24th July 2009

hmm..yesterday nite i went out to drink with my frenz until 6am.. so, today i take my offday.. and i called my old frenz to come out for a small gathering.. we (me, Kim Bee, Andy, Leslie and Lester) went to Wangsa Maju BRJ to yumcha.. we yum until 10pm and then we head to T-Bun Cybercafe.. nice meeting them back and had a great time playing Left 4 Dead together.. haha..we went back home around 12am at nite.. but i stayed at Victory Snooker and met a gang of Malay playing lucky ball and i joined the game.. won a bit la from them.. we played until 6.30am.. here u can see, what time do i always sleep everyday.. haihz..

happy 22nd to u again, dear..

22/07/2009

two years ago back from today, we were planning what to do on this 1st month anniversary.. we went to Times Square to celebrate..

last week, when i phoned to u.. im glad to know that u are enjoying ur life so much.. just happy go lucky everyday.. and im happy that u still willing to speak with me on the phone for more than an hour..ur voice will always running in my ear side..

today.. a lot of things happened.. well, i can say that im very touched with it.. since that i had been transferred to another department of my company, im getting used to it one day by one day.. im now working at office, sitting and on9 and key-in things everyday.. my boss let a whole shop lot for me to take over.. i have to set up a sales counter and decorate whatever i need.. and he oways drag me into his meeting room to discuss with sumthing la.. i learnt a lot in this 2 weeks time.. and for lady boss, today she told a word that makes me stunned and speechless.. that's so kind of her for saying that..


tomolo will be my off day lo.. finally can rest.. yesterday i accompanied my fren from 10pm till 7am morning.. cheesin la.. no choice, ppl who broke up with lover sure very down..i felt that kind of feeling b4..



Jinjang-Jimmy

20/07/2009 my blog re-open!!

today's business isn't that good compared to last 2 days and that was wow.. yesterday i went for a drink with some old frenz.. really happy to see them back especially one of them, Suet Theng, who went overseas for few months ady. we talked bout our past memoirs, when we was around form3 tattime.. haha.. and their 2 frenz was quite funny also.. i forgot to ask for photograph section ar.. but dun wry, we might havin one last farewell party on this week.. duno which date yet.. and actually im confusing also la.. cuz this week another one of my fren Lester Low who are goin away also by this week (holiday ends).. one gang of girls.. one gang of guys.. confusing.. and what's more important is.. where to get a car for one day? cuz my car is still inside bengkel kereta yet.. damaged and crushed like hell.. hope that everything goes well by this week la.. plz..


p/s :- glad to blog again..





Jinjang - Jimmy

happy 22nd to u, dear..

again, it's 22nd of the month.. wishing u that u r happy for what u are today.. i will still wait for u.. love you forever

my 5th station : KL International Book Fair, PWTC

17/04/2009 - 26/04/2009

my 4th station : 2nd floor IT Centre Low Yat Plaza

14/04/2009 - 16/04/2009

my 3rd station : PIKOM PC Fair 2009 (KL Convention Centre)

10/04/2009 - 12/04/2009

one year had passed, and here it comes again.. PC Fair.. everyone's crazy bout it.. and yeah, we got involved in it again.. but this year we mainly sell our broadband product and not CSL handphones like last year.. 1st day, there's only 5 of us working there and we got only 35 submissions.. but 2nd day and last day, there's 12 of us working.. so, the result rised up to 80 submissions per day averagely.. there's really a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot of people over there.. especially in Hall 4.. walao ye.. just imagine a single hall full with almost 10000 people or more than that.. and u hear people shouting to promote their products.. it's really a headache.. on the final day, something bad happened to our booth.. ok, it's like this.. we actually rented this booth from another PC company named Billionmark and supposingly we can only sell hardwares that are related to computering.. but, in this PC Fair event, we sell Celcom Broadband registration that the price is terribly cheap.. our package sounds like this, ' RM299 = USB Modem + Free 3 Months Broadband subscription '.. outside they're selling one single USB Modem for RM250 but u have to pay RM68 every month to subscribe a monthly broadband.. so, a lot of Celcom dealers weren't satisfy on us.. and duno which fucker went to report us to PC Fair management and then only they know that we are not selling only computer hardwares.. wow, they asked us to leave immediately and chased away all of our customers.. well, what can we do? but later on, after one hour, we managed to come back once again.. and changed our shirt to our company shirt, CSL.. CSL is not just only a handphone supplier, but also a modem supplier.. haha, so they cannot do anything.. just that we cannot do anymore Celcom Broadband registration only.. guess what, we did it without their notice and customers keep on come to buy.. our 3 days PC Fair ended with relief and joy.. i got to know a few friends from there, especially from the booth that selling MP5 and MP3 players, and as well as the Celcom team from Ipoh.. they were 5 of them.. so, that's all for it now..

my 2nd station : SACC Mall (Shah Alam)

02/04/2009 - 05/04/2009

a wonderful wet experience at this Handphone Fair, Shah Alam.. four straight days of rainy days.. the most terrible day is on the 3rd day which our stall almost break down and blown away by strong wind.. all stalls nearby were sunk by rain water, but the crowd is still there.. Thank God we managed to catch customer during raining time.. and yeah, we did 49 submissions for 4 days.. that's actually a really small amount but since it is just the beginning of our new Broadband CSL package, it's okay.. oh yah, the DJ and the tenants nearby were so friendly and helpful as well.. especially the RHB credit card team..

My 1st station : Celcom Trade Briefing, Wisma MCA and my 2nd station : 32 Square (Seksyen 19, Petaling Jaya)

31/03/2009

Today i went to the 1st Celcom trade briefing with my Assistant Manager at Wisma MCA. Felt nervous when i got to know that a lot of dealer representative will be at there. Our purpose for going there is to promote our CSL products and to brief fresh dealers about our dealing proposal. Luckily before this event, i managed to have lunch with her at McD Sungei Wang.. I'm very happy to see her, but sadly today i noticed something. She no longer wear my dolphin shaped necklace anymore, she now wear a new love-shaped necklace. Haihz. By the way, the event ended at 5pm and we managed to get almost 30 dealers' namecard for further references.


01/04/2009

April fool! Today i still need to work, no fool for it.. my first day as Celcom Broadband man.. and my first outdoor station is at 32 Square, PJ.. The fair shud start at 12pm until 9pm, but we were late.. damn sienzz over there.. because that's not a strategic place at all.. 20 stalls with only 3 stalls doing Broadband registration.. the others are credit card and clothes stall.. very sienzz the whole day..

i'm back again..

too busy with my schedule lately.. went to here and there to participate in fair.. now only i feel what is a truly worthly income.. it came from ur hardworking and effort.. and in chinese there's one word means '血汗錢' .. i had been transfered to Celcom department starting from April 2009, despite our company had involved in a major Celcom Broadband programme..

26/03/2009 beh tahan..

我越来越顶不顺我现在哦的生活。。到底我做错了什么事？做么一个两个都给脸色看？我又没有欠谁的钱又没有杀过人。。我做阿头这个地位真的做到 si beh sien 了。。坏人又是我，有好事就好人一个。。跟本就没有放我在他们的眼中来看！怎样才让他们服我？每天请他们吃东西？每天和他们说好话？每天听回他们的话？酱才行吗？这样来换他们坐我的位子吧。。有时要和他们好又不行，骂也不行。。真的是一句，顶不顺。。

22/03/2009 (21st twenty-second)

haha..longtime din write blog tim.. too bz with sumthing.. 22/03/2009..22nd again.. i wish her happy always, hope that she will be healthy and pretty everyday, haha, what a lame wish.. ok, 2day i had a Celcom Broadband Big Deal Fair at Lowyat Boulevard street.. from 9.30am to 10.30pm.. it was a huge carnival with exciting event courtesy from Celcom.. hmm, we had Telventure, Nasaria, Jaya Berjaya, Cyrix, Full Line, Effective and us competing each and other.. when it comes to Happy Hour section, walao a.. they all doing great crazy deals, shouting at each other.. we had a lot of fun over there, especially the 2 DJs Alan and Bob.. they are really funny.. we had cheerleading performance, breakdance n shuffle, band performance and at nite, haha, we had 2 winners from Project Superstar 2006 John (Huang Jun Yuan) and Desiree (Chen Sze Lee) to sing a few songs and cheer up the crowd.. i had photo session with John at Coffee Bean near there, it was really strange that no one spotted him sitting over there, except me.. hhahahahahah... it was really a tiring day and hot over there, but all of us really enjoyed the event very much.. sumore it's just the main entrance of our place of working.. Celcom, it's all in your hand.. nice slogan har? anyone interested in having broadband line or USB modem, just call me for any inquiry ya? lolz..promoting over here..

*i miss her very much..just saw her yesterday..

越爱越难过

说, 说你为什么
为什么要走
说你为何要分手
别拖, 求你别软弱
求你说出口
分手的理由..
但你却拖拖拖, 拖到什么时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别拖拖拖
大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活

如果说你要走, 我不会留,
我不去管以后然后我们说清楚
一句话就够
如果说你要走, 我不会留
我不去管以后多么痛
多么的难过
别越爱越难过..

然后连话都不说
继续沉默
连朋友都没得作
为了什么
然后跟别人说你其实还是爱
我就算了吧
坏人我来作

如果说你要走, 我不会留
我不去管以后然后我们说清楚
一句话就够
如果说你要走, 我不会留
我不去管以后多么痛
多么的难过
别越爱越难过..

Translation :
Say, say why, say why you want to go
Say why you want to break up
Don’t hold it up, please don’t be so weak
Please say it out, the reason why you want to leave
But you are still faltering, how long will you keep it on?
If you want to go, but why are you still staying here?
Please don’t keep on hesitating, say it out loud
Please, if you want to be hurt, then so be it, just spare me some happiness

If you say you want to leave, I can’t hold you back
I won’t mind you later
Then we say it clearly, one sentence is enough
If you say you want to leave, I can’t make you stay
So much hurt, so much sadness
Don’t let it be that the more you love, the more you feel sad
And then, even words aren’t spoken anymore, just continue the silence
Even can’t be friends, what’s it for?
After that, you say to other people that you actually still love me
Just forget it, I’ve become a mean person

to echynn.. sorry la, i forgot..

ok..this is for that night 14/03/2009 i went out for dinner with my frenz Kah Yan and Xiao Jing.. errrmmm..i had stomache tatday and didnt go for work.. i stayed at home and b a guai guai boy, clean my own room and sweep the whole house.. at night, i went out for dinner with my frenz.. mamak store was whole packed up that night bcoz of the Man U vs Arsenal.. or izzit..? duno whether i saw it wrong or wat? hmm, then we went to those chinese restaurant lo.. u knoe, those place where adults always bring their children for dinner.. order dishes and white rice those type.. hhahahaha, we went in and sat down and duno what to order.. then i jux keep on looking at the TV bcoz the kids over there watching Ben Ten (a cartoon) la.. hahahaha, we had 3 dishes at there.. for drinks, we had THE METAL GUANYIN (tie guanyin tea).. hahaha, we ate until 10.30pm until it started to rain lo.. that's all.. bluek..

8 persons offday today..

walao a..apa macam leh.. 8 ppl off today.. jux me n another 5 persons working.. have to work as salesman, cashier, service warranty department, supervisor, receptionist.. but luckily i had my Pizza breakfast this morning, and for lunch i ate Indo Mee and orange juice..

13/03/2009 offday lor..

i woke up at 10.20am today.. happy that i finally got my off day.. supposing we had already planned to go have our japanese buffet breakfast at Yaki Yaki there at 11am, but we didnt make it to reach there.. me and Karyn reached Lowyat and after parking, it's already 1.10pm.. the buffet ends at 2pm.. then we went to SG.wang and wait for Carmen to arrive.. then we head to Pavillion to find for what we can eat.. ooo, then Karyn suggested Sakae Sushi.. (the people there really sakai la.. when we enter oni, they yelled something called 'shinimase!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' damn fucking loud.. ahahahah.. we ordered a lot of things there.. i really hate the green tea with roasted rice la.. taste like shit.. there, they gave me my bday present that they didnt have chance to give me last few weeks.. haha, a lighter with 'happy bday' word engraved on it.. thanks girls.. after we had our meal, it started to rain.. then Carmen went back home 1st.. and me and Karyn went back to Lenseng.. 7pm we went back to Sg.wang again bcoz she last minute got a job offer tml, so she need to buy a new pants.. hahahahaha.. besides that, i oso need to find my godfather to discuss bout something.. ehehehheeh.. we lepak at TS with Siew Kuan n Penny they all, thought they wana yumcha after this geh, but finally it was canceled.. and then i sent her back home at 11pm sumthing lo.. then i went to find my frenz at snooker centre.. and we played until 4am.. walao a, tired...

11/03/2009 Final Confession

10.30pm after work, when i was at home, i quarreled with my parents on something.. fuck it.. then i went out alone to a place i always go.. bought half dozen of beer, drink by myself.. i drink and drink and keep on drink.. then, i thought of her.. and tried to make a call to her.. she was sleeping that time, but still want to chat with me.. we talked for quite long until my battery was gone.. i confessed to her for the last time, but she gave me the same answer as usual.. she even told me that she had a crush on another guy, which is much more better than me.. she wants a guy that can take care of her, with a steady permanent work, can take care of the whole family, and can make her happy.. when she said that, i knew that i already have no chance of getting her back by my side.. well, it's nothing much but just a sad lonely night.. i promise to myself that i will cry for this girl for the one last time.. i won't cry for her and do something stupid for her anymore.. that's all for it.. she had changed, faster than what i thought.. i hate involving in any love relationship now, because there's no any sweet words that will come true at the end.. we talk sweet everyday, but just ask yourself, do u really do what u have just said..? i love you..i want to marry you, i want to be with you forever.. the word 'forever' here really means a lot.. sensitively spoke by every couple in this world.. but, i trust myself and my feeling.. i still have heart with her.. i love her, the feeling is undefinable.. there's no such forever love in this world.. i back home at 6am morning, and then take a short nap and woke up at 9.50am and get ready to go for work..

exhausted..

i'm very exhausted.. i didn't sleep for one and a half day.. think too much..

今天是十一号

11/03/2009 一百二十天已过去，刚好四个月我们分开了，没有你的日子，我一天比一天过得更难过。。我一直在想其实我是不是很傻，追求一个没回报的事情。。你是否在暗示我些什么吗？那些信息又是什么来的？如果你玩我耍我你会觉得开心，请你坦白告诉我，我会立即站在你面前给你打，踢，玩，踩。。只要你开心。。或许我还没有资格和你谈这些吧。。你认为你还没有看到我有任何改变。。你相信我吧，我不会放弃你的，因为我实在太爱你了。。

The 'Yuan' and the 'Yap' is back!!!

hahaha..today im very happy.. my former colleague Ah Yuan is back to our company to help us.. he will be handling over my job at the Broadband department.. besides that, there's another one of my colleague have been transferred to my counter.. Vincent Yap.. So, there's 4 person working at my counter now.. I jux have to watch them and supervise them for everything they do.. This morning i sent her back home to get her wallet, hahaha..very good har? she forgotten to bring her wallet mah.. then i was worry bout her safety if she needs to go back home alone.. Today's business isn't that good.. just a few hundreds of profit.. My boss and my manager went out for meeting, leaving me alone here in Lowyat branch.. sad.. i had McDonald for my lunch..

07/03/2009 memorable night

One memorable night for me, ever.. since yesterday, my fren already invited me to drink at Ampang geh.. some pub la i think.. they already bought a few bottles of Chivas.. but then, at evening, she sms-ed me asking me whether im goin to poppy anot tonight.. OMG, she's goin to poppy ar, with her frenz? then i held her for a while and planned. finally, i went to book a table at there.. i 4got tat i've promised my fren at another place. at last, i ffk them n i went to poppy with another group of frenz.. she didnt go there bcoz her frenz ffk her oso.. then, i dated her out n she was pleased to follow me.. i've waited down at her house for 20 mins, and then she came. she was really special but strange tatnite. jux the feeling..it's undefinable.. we reached there at around 12am. i bought 2 bottles of Diwars (RM565) and brought my fren in. holy shit, they checked my frens' IC.. tatnite was really strict bcoz the Poppy boss was there.. under 21 years old cant go in.. 3 of my frenz were held up and they waited outside.. then i went to look for my fren at another door, and he got 3 female IC for us..and with my bouncer fren's help, they let us go in.. hahahhahaha.. then, we had a lot of fun inside.. until then, there's something happened at the middle.. i was very pissed off.. fuck that shit wei..

我的错，dear..

飛機已離開機場
妳選擇了前往妳的方向
不再迷惘忘了我們愛的過往
忘了我給妳的傷
學會堅強
從前的我不懂妳犧牲多大
為我失去朋友不講
還放棄了所有夢想覺得沒怎樣
不會將心比心去想
讓妳慢慢慢慢失去了希望
能不能夠再給我機會好好的愛妳
我會仔細的聆聽
妳對我說的一言一語
我會學會去控制脾氣不讓妳傷心
對妳好好的去珍惜
請妳相信我的心還是愛妳
我想再重來一次
回到過去彌補妳的傷
沒那種事怎麼做才能夠停止
後悔竟傷妳如此　不再放肆
為何總到失去才懂的難過當妳在我身邊的時候
總是為我默默守候都是因為我的錯
錯過這難得的擁有就讓妳愛我的心慢慢溜走

i'm so pissed off with you, man !!

Business very bad today.. i order pizza hut again today.. 2 large and 1 regular with 3 mushroom soups.. sudah giler.. RM68.90.. this evening, here came a stupid fucker dealer, who scold ppl without looking at the situation and the evidences.. he scolded me and we had a big quarrel.. he said he want to report me to my headquarter, i just let him to do that.. guess what he spoke in English to my HQ, '' ur salesman here ar, service bad, no minus ''.. hah? minus? or manners? poor that person who hears that.. no longer than that, my boss called me, and asked about the situation, luckily she didnt scold me much..cuz i explained everything to her..it's not our fault here.. it's the HQ's fault.. that person even shaked his hand with me at the end when everything was settled.. my boss know my temperature.. bad temperature she said.. hahahaha..what ever.. i'm jux doing what i think i'm right.. at night, another case happened.. my broadband customer accused my shop that we cheated him.. we really submitted his application form to Celcom main branch on 5th March 2009 2.20pm, despite he havent get his line yet, so he decided to check at the main branch by himself.. the Celcom there told him that we just submitted his form on this evening 3pm.. what the hell, he called me and scold scold scold and request for a refund back.. tomolo he will come to find me, bcoz i have already prepare the credit card statement to prove that we paid everything on 5th March and not 6th March.. jux see what will happen..

good day..

sales very good today.. not even half day, profit raised up to RM1000 already.. today is the 3rd continuous day that i had Pizza Hut as my lunch, one whole Regular Hawaiian Chicken by myself.. when everytime i order, the operator who answer will ask me, 'the same order as yesterday, Mr. Jimmy'? hahaha..funny guy..

selamat hari jadi kepada saya sendiri.. haha

01/03/2009

Tiada apa yang nak diperkatakan hari ini.. Disebabkan semalam sudah terlalu letih, hari ini saya tidur sehingga pukul 12.30pm.. Oleh itu, hari ini saya tidak bekerja seperti yang dijanjikan. Hujan turun dengan lebatnya pada lewat petang, memang selesa dan sejuk bayu yang dilambaikan.. Sudah kian lama saya tidak merasakan keselesaan dan ketenangan jiwa seperti ini.. Pada waktu malam, rakan saya mengajak saya untuk minum teh berdekatan kediaman saya.. Hari pertama saya dalam umur 19 ini, masih nun jauh perjalanan yang perlu diteruskan lagi.. Selamat berusaha, Jimmy Oh..

Happy Birthday To You, Jinjang

28/02/2009

haha..luckily there's no 29th this year (there's one last year), so today will be my last day of 18 lo.. i will be one year older on the nextday, really miss that.. what's good is that i can be call as a matured teenager already.. haha.. what's so great about that.. ok.. today, i've received a small gift from my fren, although it's not a big thingy but, thanks anyway.. i wore nth special 2day, jux a normal plain T from PDI, green colour.. i jux feel very special 2day bcoz there's a really a lot customer who can deal with me in a very very polite way.. some of them even wish me happiee bday.. bcoz they saw my IC number when i fill in the registration form for them, which that require my verification oso.. Jimmy Oh Kien Seng 900301-14-6649.. hahaha.. after finish work, me and my fren lepak at sumwhere 1st.. haha, secret duh.. then b4 12am, we quickly rush to Padi House (POPPY).. holy shit, full hse wei.. then we gathered over there n wait for upcoming frenz to come.. we went in at 12.40am 01/03/2009.. so happy that there are a lot of uninvited frenz at there..jux that we dun sit at the same spot oni.. then we started to drink n dance here dance there.. my fren dragged me to his table at the end of the stage there n started to ask me to drink.. then back at my spot there, the next table bsides me (foreigners) give me a cheers also.. they r drinking red wine ba, bcoz the drink tat they gave me was red colour, wont be blood gua.. haha, drink drink drink.. then i ask my fren upstairs to come down oso.. then my cousins came oso.. drink again.. my fren introduced her female fren to me (she said she's younger than me and single) wor.. hahaha, then she jux hugged me n dance dance dance.. i knoe she was drunk.. bcoz she kept on falling down n i need to pull her back up.. very mah fan la.. thn i ask my fren to hold her back.. then i continue drinking.. fulamak.. i was drunk myself at last.. my fren carried me n let me sit outside Poppy bsides the pool.. and then i vormitted over there.. i jux vormitted plain watery thing oni.. that's alcohol.. bcoz i didnt eat anything b4 i come here.. i wasnt really drunk that time, i still can stand can smoke can talk can think.. my fren worried about me and then they drove my car back home lo.. paiseh leh.. tat's how the nite ends.. thanks to all my frenz who came on tatnite, eventhough it's jux a short while.. but i appreaciated it..

*p/s : some ppl said that 19 years old birthday u shudnt celebrate it so over.. or else u will be very bad luck the whole life.. i jux take that for 50 : 50 lah..

祝我生日快乐。。

这一张是你上一年帮我拍的

27/02/2009



生日前的两天, 下午，我朋友们特地过来我工作地方这里给个京喜我。。吃了下午饭，他们还带我去选礼物。。瞒感动一下的。。到晚上，'她' 又突然约我去吃蛋糕。。我走去 jalan alor 的 secret recipe 买了三片蛋糕，其中一个是她很爱吃的 strawberry chocolate.. 我拿到她家的糖水店，和她的姐姐和她姐男朋友一起坐下聊天吃蛋糕。。很开心可以再次坐在她旁边看着她说话和笑的样子。。时间晚了，她还请我上去她的家坐下。。我也很久没见到她的家人了啦。。不知道要说什么才好。。哈哈哈哈，不理啦，开心就好啦。。她家人看到我很京呀，然后她妈有和我聊下啦。。今天不同往日咯，我的身份是朋友。。我坐到半夜一点酱就开始眼睡了，然后就回家。。想回以前在她家出门前她会给我个 goodbye kiss 的，哈哈哈哈，然后看着我走去搭 lift..她那晚真的有看着我搭 lift.. 真开心。。

明天以后

在我的记忆里面有一个你..
在我最痛苦的时候陪我渡过, 难过过了, 天晴朗了, 你就走..
你拯救我的寂寞, 我的痛, 我的梦, 在你的面前, 我不必保留
还来不及对你说, 迟到的我的心动..
我的好, 我的坏..
我的脾气你最懂..
我不要你来心疼我
我不要你离开我
明天的以后, 我们会懂失恋的挫折让人变更成熟..
我对你感觉胜过爱情..
因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气..
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心
对不起,
我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天你会找到你的唯一
还微笑祝福你


从 '明天以后' 歌词改的

my unhappy 19th is coming..

it's near my birthday now.. 2 days more.. but i dont feel very happy and excited.. i saw her back few days ago and we had a long talk.. we become best friend now but i dont know this relationship will last for how long.. i will wait for u.. 108 days passed from the day we broke up.. if that is still not enough, i will wait for few more hundred of days ..

你在那里？

我的生日快要到了。。你记得吗？上一年和你度过我的生日真的很开心。。可以在你的心目中做一天的王子。。但是这一年我就单身潜逃咯。。

dying... i'll stop smoking for sure now..

doctor Wong said that my LUNGS have a bit problem.. a bit means? duno la.. jux felt very pain everytime i cough.. something wrong with my inner organs.. thanks to what? alcohol and marlboro light.. i'll stop smoking from now on.. lungs cancer wei..scary..