22/03/2009 (21st twenty-second)

haha..longtime din write blog tim.. too bz with sumthing.. 22/03/2009..22nd again.. i wish her happy always, hope that she will be healthy and pretty everyday, haha, what a lame wish.. ok, 2day i had a Celcom Broadband Big Deal Fair at Lowyat Boulevard street.. from 9.30am to 10.30pm.. it was a huge carnival with exciting event courtesy from Celcom.. hmm, we had Telventure, Nasaria, Jaya Berjaya, Cyrix, Full Line, Effective and us competing each and other.. when it comes to Happy Hour section, walao a.. they all doing great crazy deals, shouting at each other.. we had a lot of fun over there, especially the 2 DJs Alan and Bob.. they are really funny.. we had cheerleading performance, breakdance n shuffle, band performance and at nite, haha, we had 2 winners from Project Superstar 2006 John (Huang Jun Yuan) and Desiree (Chen Sze Lee) to sing a few songs and cheer up the crowd.. i had photo session with John at Coffee Bean near there, it was really strange that no one spotted him sitting over there, except me.. hhahahahahah... it was really a tiring day and hot over there, but all of us really enjoyed the event very much.. sumore it's just the main entrance of our place of working.. Celcom, it's all in your hand.. nice slogan har? anyone interested in having broadband line or USB modem, just call me for any inquiry ya? lolz..promoting over here..

*i miss her very much..just saw her yesterday..

越爱越难过

说, 说你为什么
为什么要走
说你为何要分手
别拖, 求你别软弱
求你说出口
分手的理由..
但你却拖拖拖, 拖到什么时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别拖拖拖
大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活

如果说你要走, 我不会留,
我不去管以后然后我们说清楚
一句话就够
如果说你要走, 我不会留
我不去管以后多么痛
多么的难过
别越爱越难过..

然后连话都不说
继续沉默
连朋友都没得作
为了什么
然后跟别人说你其实还是爱
我就算了吧
坏人我来作

如果说你要走, 我不会留
我不去管以后然后我们说清楚
一句话就够
如果说你要走, 我不会留
我不去管以后多么痛
多么的难过
别越爱越难过..

Translation :
Say, say why, say why you want to go
Say why you want to break up
Don’t hold it up, please don’t be so weak
Please say it out, the reason why you want to leave
But you are still faltering, how long will you keep it on?
If you want to go, but why are you still staying here?
Please don’t keep on hesitating, say it out loud
Please, if you want to be hurt, then so be it, just spare me some happiness

If you say you want to leave, I can’t hold you back
I won’t mind you later
Then we say it clearly, one sentence is enough
If you say you want to leave, I can’t make you stay
So much hurt, so much sadness
Don’t let it be that the more you love, the more you feel sad
And then, even words aren’t spoken anymore, just continue the silence
Even can’t be friends, what’s it for?
After that, you say to other people that you actually still love me
Just forget it, I’ve become a mean person

to echynn.. sorry la, i forgot..

ok..this is for that night 14/03/2009 i went out for dinner with my frenz Kah Yan and Xiao Jing.. errrmmm..i had stomache tatday and didnt go for work.. i stayed at home and b a guai guai boy, clean my own room and sweep the whole house.. at night, i went out for dinner with my frenz.. mamak store was whole packed up that night bcoz of the Man U vs Arsenal.. or izzit..? duno whether i saw it wrong or wat? hmm, then we went to those chinese restaurant lo.. u knoe, those place where adults always bring their children for dinner.. order dishes and white rice those type.. hhahahaha, we went in and sat down and duno what to order.. then i jux keep on looking at the TV bcoz the kids over there watching Ben Ten (a cartoon) la.. hahahaha, we had 3 dishes at there.. for drinks, we had THE METAL GUANYIN (tie guanyin tea).. hahaha, we ate until 10.30pm until it started to rain lo.. that's all.. bluek..

8 persons offday today..

walao a..apa macam leh.. 8 ppl off today.. jux me n another 5 persons working.. have to work as salesman, cashier, service warranty department, supervisor, receptionist.. but luckily i had my Pizza breakfast this morning, and for lunch i ate Indo Mee and orange juice..

13/03/2009 offday lor..

i woke up at 10.20am today.. happy that i finally got my off day.. supposing we had already planned to go have our japanese buffet breakfast at Yaki Yaki there at 11am, but we didnt make it to reach there.. me and Karyn reached Lowyat and after parking, it's already 1.10pm.. the buffet ends at 2pm.. then we went to SG.wang and wait for Carmen to arrive.. then we head to Pavillion to find for what we can eat.. ooo, then Karyn suggested Sakae Sushi.. (the people there really sakai la.. when we enter oni, they yelled something called 'shinimase!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' damn fucking loud.. ahahahah.. we ordered a lot of things there.. i really hate the green tea with roasted rice la.. taste like shit.. there, they gave me my bday present that they didnt have chance to give me last few weeks.. haha, a lighter with 'happy bday' word engraved on it.. thanks girls.. after we had our meal, it started to rain.. then Carmen went back home 1st.. and me and Karyn went back to Lenseng.. 7pm we went back to Sg.wang again bcoz she last minute got a job offer tml, so she need to buy a new pants.. hahahahaha.. besides that, i oso need to find my godfather to discuss bout something.. ehehehheeh.. we lepak at TS with Siew Kuan n Penny they all, thought they wana yumcha after this geh, but finally it was canceled.. and then i sent her back home at 11pm sumthing lo.. then i went to find my frenz at snooker centre.. and we played until 4am.. walao a, tired...

11/03/2009 Final Confession

10.30pm after work, when i was at home, i quarreled with my parents on something.. fuck it.. then i went out alone to a place i always go.. bought half dozen of beer, drink by myself.. i drink and drink and keep on drink.. then, i thought of her.. and tried to make a call to her.. she was sleeping that time, but still want to chat with me.. we talked for quite long until my battery was gone.. i confessed to her for the last time, but she gave me the same answer as usual.. she even told me that she had a crush on another guy, which is much more better than me.. she wants a guy that can take care of her, with a steady permanent work, can take care of the whole family, and can make her happy.. when she said that, i knew that i already have no chance of getting her back by my side.. well, it's nothing much but just a sad lonely night.. i promise to myself that i will cry for this girl for the one last time.. i won't cry for her and do something stupid for her anymore.. that's all for it.. she had changed, faster than what i thought.. i hate involving in any love relationship now, because there's no any sweet words that will come true at the end.. we talk sweet everyday, but just ask yourself, do u really do what u have just said..? i love you..i want to marry you, i want to be with you forever.. the word 'forever' here really means a lot.. sensitively spoke by every couple in this world.. but, i trust myself and my feeling.. i still have heart with her.. i love her, the feeling is undefinable.. there's no such forever love in this world.. i back home at 6am morning, and then take a short nap and woke up at 9.50am and get ready to go for work..

exhausted..

i'm very exhausted.. i didn't sleep for one and a half day.. think too much..