Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

i feel lik working..

although i lost RM100 lastnight, but still i have to work.. today is Sunday and at first, the crowd seems to be not that much.. they only come when it's about lunch time, and yeah, we got a total of 10 submissions today in this our very own counter.. yet, i managed to help some of our friends in Acer showcase here to sell laptops.. haha, and Stefanie jux told me that she achieved her target for today of 7 pcs laptop.. haha, congrats la.. my bestfren came to find me this evening, and i was shocked that he started to smoke..lolz, and broke up with her gf.. and got a new job in HLA OTS.. but he's still my friend no matter wat changes he made.. today, a bit tired la..might not going anywhere tonight.. go back home, get my shirts ready and sleep.. tomolo offday lor.. ^^

people are changing

i do believe in cycle, which signifies changing of something.. weather change, life change, time change and even human as well.. a lot of my frenz change as well, they weren't the same like before, i felt kinda disappointed. i really hope to have friends that can last for decades at least. haihz..

i'm awakened..

today it's supposed to be a very bad day n a moody day for me, cuz whole day i just sit at counter and there's no customer.. evening, i went out for korean meal with my friend, and that's the 1st time i really try what is the taste of kimchi lo.. yerr, not really like it.. when it comes to night, it was strange bcoz a lot of friends called me n ajak me out.. sing K (with MKS gang), snooker game (with Dat Kinn), dinner (Carmen), pool game (ex-schoolmates), and yumcha (karyn n cming).. lolz, finally i chose to go for pool game instead, until 12.30am.. and then we went to yumcha at MZ Corner near my house.. hmm, when we suddenly talk about education topic, Leslie and Kimbee intend to persuade me to take a diploma course.. all this while, i'm just lost in nowhere and duno what kind of cert i shud take.. i really want to further my studies n that's always my dream.. and tonight, they did tell me a lot about the education thingy, such as loan, suitable college and much more.. Kim Bee keep on ask me when i want to apply or ask more about the courses/programmes.. really happy to have friends like this who really want u to walk in the correct path n not to get lost in anywhere anymore.. thanks guys, i really appreciated it..

really can consider about studying bah..

legion

after 2 weeks of working, finally i had the chance to take off day.. and i went to Pavilion for movie just now, with friends. Legion, this movie is quite nice except for its storyline. why would angels possess in human body and kill people. and they could be easily killed by machine guns and shotguns? huh? what is happening? after the movie, we went to Pappa Rich at Shamelin for yumcha session lor..

my critics on Legion
- angels kill human ar? not demons?
- their wings is made by steel? in order to block bullets?
- angels are afraid of guns?
- angels shouldn't have sharp teeth bcoz this will make them look bad like a demon
- Michael is too gay, judged by how he tell Jeep that he have faith in him and, when he tell Gabriel that everything's enough.. he hold Gabriel's face with hand, just like want to kiss him. ==
- Apocalypse, or the end of the day.. isn't that suppose to be related with natural disaster nor meteor crushing? and for this movie, it's God who destroy everyone on earth?



gotta sleep early now lo, there will be a fair in front of times square tomorrow..
work work work..

咳。。

dear.. 你在哪里？睡了吗？
我写着这个 blog 是在麻麻档。。我的朋友刚走了。。
本来昨晚听到你的声音后，睡到很舒服的。。
本来想今天开开心心的开始新的一天的。。
但是
早上又发生了一些东西，
弄到我很不开心。。一阵天在公司死顶假装没有事。。
刚才又逼自己和朋友懂球。。
哪。。现在一自己一个人坐在这里我又突然觉得寂寞。。
很想找你聊天。。
像昨晚一样那么开心。。
那么不用想将多。。
不用翻那么多。。
咳。。还是不可能的啦。。
你已经睡觉了吧。。
你明天还要早起床的列。。
你现在的工作比之前的还要早。。
写到这里啦。。
晚安。。

我爱你。。

22/11/2009 haihz.. today again..

22 again.. 11 again.. makes me think a lot.. lastnight, i went for a gathering with my old skoolmates.. and it was nice to see them back, especially Chong.. which the last time i saw him was last 2 years.. everyone doesnt change much.. except Kb n tung, they become smoker lik me ady.. hahaha..

back to work, we all enjoy the great BORING day of Sunday.. and we had a feast of KFC n McD in the office at afternoon.. and somehow, today is oso a great loss of everyone here in China City.. hmm..five of us.. lost over RM2000 today.. fuck that place la..

at around 8pm when im back from dinner with frenz, she find me to chat at MSN.. wow..a really enjoyable conversation.. and she did encouraged me to save more money as i told her that i spent a lot lately.. she's really nice..




thanks..

暗恋

Still lonely still lonely
昨晚又再见到你 你还是那么美丽
我紧张到话都不会说 就傻傻看着你
渴望永远这距离 就是和你在一起
醒来发现这一切都只是我的梦境
告诉自己要冷静 却又无法不想你
我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己
是你对我有戒心 还是我没有自信
可是谁也不能阻止我 我要暗恋你

So lonely
So here I am standing all alone
在某个街头 有个我在这里只为你等候
Here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有 希望你能了解你能够接受
今晚渴望再见你 虽然只是在梦想
短暂的甜蜜也胜过了一辈子没有你
就算没快乐结局 就算从此死了心
我要付出我所有诚意 只要能感动你

我愿意


So lonely
So here I am standing all alone
开放我所有 我要为你怎么做你才接受我
我喜欢你 我要你 我爱你
So here I am standing all alone
So here I am waiting just for you

I'm lonely
故事就说到这里 就算你们再好奇
我想说的都已说完了 其余是秘密
在那某一个街头 会流传某个旋律
那是我在轻轻唱着歌 我多爱你 vicky

so happy to see u back..

after 215 days passed, seven months.. i get the golden chance to see u back once again.. 17th November 2009 8.02pm, a memorable moment which i was playing my laptop at my counter here, and suddenly, she popped out in front of me and say hi.. oh my god, i was damn shocked and my heart was beating lik hell.. she didnt change much, still the same adorable face.. haha.. but really, i felt happy to see her back.. thanks to my fren who brought her to visit me ( i jux treat this person a dinner juxnow) haha..wat a lame.. i hope to see her again someday, wait that im free 1st then i will date her to some more quiet place to hav a long chat.. dear, i miss u so much..

p/s : dun eat Prawn Mee at Oldtown Low Yat Plaza, they served it without prawns.. i scolded them juxnow..then only they put 2 more prawns for me.. shitty guy..

11th November 2009 = one year passed..

today im very moody, duno y.. cuz i reminded back myself last year's today was the day i broke up with her.. 11/11.. in my life, most of the time, the number 11 and 22 keep on come up in my sight.. and a lot of happenings are related with this number oso.. for example, sumtimes i accidentally sat on a table number 22 in some restaurant.. when i fork the bill, then oni i know.. or, the number that my company gave to me oso end up with the number 22..019-2777422.. and a lot more.. hmm.. 11 oso..u see, 11th November..11 + 11 = ?... 22 right? hmm...

today is wednesday, supposingly my offday is on thursday.. but i took a sudden offday from my manager despite my head was pain at the time i woke up.. really pain.. then i stay at home for the whole day and clean up my messy room.. watched '官心计', and ordered McD delivery for my lunch.. i tried not to think so much about this date.. at night, roughly 11pm my fren called me for snooker game at PGRM.. and in the progress, a malay fren of mine challenged me for a game of RM 50 at the VIP table.. ok.. i won 4 frames, lost one frame.. and got myself RM 150 jux as simple as that.. aahhahaha.. i shud hav win at the 2nd frame, which i parked a blue colour ball at the hole, when i tried to pot it in..but it came out and he potted it .. but RM 150 oso ok la..


dear, i hope that you are happy for who u r now and once again, im sorry for being so mean last time.. i really regret..our memories become a torture in my mind now, as i always think of how bad i treat u last time.. do u know that i still have those pictures and videos that we took lasttime, especially the video clip which we took at outside Pavillion after we watched the movie Cloverfield with Lemon and Chongwei? it was funny and i really can smile back everytime i watch back that video..

i love you..

glad to see you back bro..

I saw Nelson Moh, one of my best brother on the way back home.. he was with his girlfriend, MJ.. and we talked for a while.. hmm, hope to find him at Melaka soon cuz he promise to take me for a ride over there.. nice place..

i'm touched to see that..

i just opened my Facebook this afternoon, and there's a new message in my inbox.. hmm, i'm so touched to see that message sent from my mui.. here's what she wrote..

"weyy gor, long time didn't chat with you jor. maybe not reaaaally long but still kinda long. hahahaha -___-

what's your phone number now ah? wanna contact you also hard. you know la, you change phone number macam change clothes...

my heart felt pain when see you said you tend to drink a lot these days. don't larrr... your body your health is very precious tau..
maybe you'll think: aiyo not your business la
but seriously, it worries your friends a lot k?

when is your off day jor ahh? see can meet up or not..

hasn't really get updates about you recently...

miss you, seriously.
Daddy misses you a lot too. haha.

take good care of yourself ah gor :)

♥
bee mui "


haha..really thank you for your kind concern, mui..
really appreciate it..
i'm quite fine here..
can't die yet har...
hahahaha..hope to see you sumday la..

4th November 2009 night

this is one of my memorable moment in my life ever..it's been a long time since then.. i went to heaven, enjoyed myself with imagination.. and then suffered as im in hell.. i hope that i won't touch those things again, ever.. i want to be a healthy person and a normal one.. the effect stopped at around 3am midnight, and my head was like pierced and frozen.. hmm..and i vormitted a lot also.. luckily today is my offday..

i will survive

yes i will and i must survive from this kind of life-circle.. i will prove to you that i'm right..

i will survive

yes i will and i must survive from this kind of life-circle.. i will prove to you that i'm right..

22/09/2009

tuesday. different from the usual one, today is a quiet day..i was ordered to look after the fair counter at sg.wang today.. and at there, a lot of passerby but only a one or two who wants to buy.. boring day.. tonight i'll be going back home and not to spend much money anymore..got the latest 古灵精探 B from my sis.. and i must watch it tonight.. save money ar..

oh yah, today is 22nd.. Happy 22nd to you, dear..
hope that u r happy today..



jinjang-jimmy

farewell to my friend, Low Han Bin..

my best friend in VI, Low Han Bin.. glad to know that he will be furthering his studies in overseas.. we had a farewell activity lastnite for him.. dinner at Kaki Corner, and then we went to Aladdin for gaming.. around 1am, Wilson need to back home, so we decided to yumcha at mamak near his house at Midah.. we hang there until 3am sumthing.. and that was the last eye i see him.. goodluck to u, Han Bin and all the best ya.. we'll be missing you here in Malaysia..






once again, Toonz!
hahahahha..




a memorable sign from him, 'bangga'

challenge day

got challenged by a gang from Kuchai Lama, snooker match tonight..
RM100 / RM300 / RM500 per frame..
i will be bringing my sifu, Rocky..

*wish us goodluck..hope that we can win..

Goodbye, Shobaanthiran Pillai (Shoby)

I just got news from my friend that my schoolmate, Shobaanthiran Pillai dead on yesterday becoz of car accident.. it was a long time i didnt see him, and hope to hang out with him some day.. i jux found his Facebook acc last week and added him.. he approved my request on last 2 days, and it's unbelievable that he is dead right now.. I felt sad, as he's the 1st friend that i know in form 1, and he always tell me that too.. we met at school hall during the 1st week orientation in Victoria Institution.. and coincidentally he is my classmate too in Form 1M.. he's a good guy indeed.. and an active one too.. May God bless you, Shoby..you will always be remembered.. R.I.P


Shoby's Videoclip : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83OMsXjhFrc




jinjang-jimmy

11/09/2009

''I can't believe what i saw.. Hope that i'm just dreaming right now, but it seems to be in my reality world for a long time and i didn't know.. I will stand strong, yet i will still wait for you.. Just hope that you are happy with your new life now''


I love you..